EdlouieArts

Hey guys, I know I've been out for too long. I have already thought about leaving DA but I changed my mind. Since this is where I grew up in my beginner art years. A home where I get to meet new people and clients. Yeah, so I'm not leaving anymore but, I'll have a reset!

I present you Myx VJ Ms. Joyce Pring. Again, I was at loss when I was making this. What a really really great subject! I fell in love with her smile while making this piece. I learned a lot from this one from the previous opinions and critiques other fellow artist gave me. I noticed it is closer to reality compared to the last ones that I did. Thank you and please enjoy the scenery. If you want a wallpaper of this you can buy the premium content for $3.00 or just 300 DApoints.

Credits to the owner of the background image. Sir, I don't know who are but if someone knows who he is please do link this image to him. I'd like to thank the one who made the post apocalyptic background.

If you want to know my process how I did this phase please do go here www.behance.net/wip/256591/482… Just a little explanation how I do my stuff. Not really a tutorial.

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Email - edlouiearts@live.com
Skype - wondering_ed

People often see me as the lucky one. Well, in my eyes I see them as the lucky one. They see me earning a lot of money, lots of dough. How I wish they'd realize every thing that I've earned has a twin of uncertainty and unstability.

I envy people, those who have jobs. Small time or big time. Part time or a full time job. They get that socialization that they need. Many doesn't realize it but it's what I lack most in my field. To be able to face the computer and talk to the same old people in your house everyday. It's not a form of complaint, but I need to explore more.

My fault is that I got used to making easy money with easy work. That I tend to sacrifice my social needs. At the back of my head. I'm afraid to find a stable work that's not fitting and gives me lower pay than what I'm earning every month. Now I face the wiggling side of my career. The no client period. Which also means no work or earn for me. For 2 months now I've failed to meet my quota. I sure do hope this month would give me a little edge.

If everything else fails then, I'll probably find work and suck at minimum wage. I know, nobody starts at the top. Yet I need to start somewhere. Like they all say, we all need to start on both feets on the ground. Will I ever make it out? Will I even suffice my needs?

This social necessity, I feel really happy meeting new people. Going to new places. Feels like it's been ages since I last met a new person. I'm not anti social, I just want to get out of my regular circle and meet new souls. Why am I still here? Because I fear of many things. Fear that I know will vanish once I start exploring on my own and accept the fact that I need to go back and start at the bottom. Sigh, I just feel so uninspired today.. really uninspired.

Will my skills and learning stop if I try to seek a job that's out of my passion? I don't know... I wish for a job that's inclined with my work so the least. The salary can wait. I want a dream job, my own business. My own investment. I want to upgrade my life and make it better. Sigh, I just feel so uninspired today.. really uninspired.

I know the answer is there, right in front of me. I just need some slap to see it.. Sigh.

 

 

Hey y'all guys out there who gave me a devwatch. Thank you for the time and effort for click the 2 buttons to give me a watch. I've created a new account and this will be the account reserved for graphic designs. Starting now and beyond, I'll focus on my illustration skills and I need to develop.

The use of the graphic design account will be my portfolio for the designs I'll be making from various clients. Though you might want to take note that I won't be accepting illustration commissions as of now. Only graphic design related commissions. e.g. Logos, banners, mockups. shirts, apparel... etc. You get my point.

After my exercises and training in illustration there will be a slight increase in my prices for commission. Though I will guarantee you top notch designs this time. Had a long time of inactivity. Need to catch up.

See y'all around. If you have queries and questions please comment them here or if you want to discuss it privately, send me a note.


Cheers,

Ed

Sorry for the inactivity. I had to become a Graphic designer to gain some income.
Any how I'll be back. I'll be studying illustration again this time.
No commissions for illustrations atm. Only graphic design commissions.
I'll still be a graphic designer. I'll need to train for a full year.
Need to see whats the improvement and strengthen some weakness.

Btw, as suggested by a friend of mine. I'll be making another account.
That's where I'll place and upload all my graphic related works.
He's right it doesnt fit here along with my other illustrations.
So yeah, Ciao!!!!!!!!


DEVIANTART!!!!!! AN ARTIST WILL BE REBORN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life is just amazing. Do you happen to pass by 2 lovers? Then ask yourself "When will I have my turn?". Life is not all that easy you see. I'll let you know, I love you. Yet somehow every time you tell me something, somehow it cuts the my bond for you slowly and slowly. Love is like double edge blade, when you hurt someone it also hurts you too.  I just turn to someone almighty and ask him why in the world did he gave me a chance to meet up with you?

I just came from a deep cut past and here you are now, trying to poke my scar to see if it still hurts or not. I am glad I met you, I didn't felt any regret at all. Though I do not want to tell you everything that I felt but I guess it can't be helped. I never asked for any assistance as to how I could heal myself whenever you gave me a glancing pain. The way you're too focused on your own self realization, you didn't care much about me at all. I was able to endure it, though I thought I could hold it long enough for you to realize it. Saka ko lang na alala, hindi pala ganun kaganda ang nakaraan mo. Minsan natanong ko na sa sarili ko, baka siguro dahil dito o doon kaya ka ganyan. Then again, it came to my mind if you're really starting to love someone, at an early phase you'd already be soft enough because you don't want that special person get hurt. So there I am, I got hurt by your glancing blows and I endured waiting for you to wake your eyes and hoping that one day you just say "Sorry boss, kung minsan pabaya ako, na hindi kita masyadong naiisip.". I had hope that day would come, but what ended was I had to give you a word thorns for you to realize it. Sadly, nothing good happened.

I remained that way and still got my hopes high enough that maybe you just need a little more time. Then fate has been ill and gave me a dose of deadly concoction. What used to be a glancing blow from you became a pure painful hit. Hindi mo ba alam, everytime you say to me na hinahalikan ka ng crush mo, I bleed of jealousy. I bleed of anger na kulang na lang puntahan ko siya sa hospital para patayin. What kept me from doing that is because you said you didn't want it. What hurts more is that you never realized my pain when you said it. Naiinis ka, thats all you're showing but you never got angry enough. To me it was 1/4 pleasure and 3/4 hatred. What hurts more is you never considered how I would feel. You keep saying si crush ganito, si crush ganyan. I never wanted to complain. Masakit kasi every time you mention this crush you don't see me. I wonder what you'd feel if I tell you that someone would kiss me even though I hate it. I wonder how it would feel if my mouth would pour out words of my crush and instead of you. You never felt that every time you utter him you're driving a double edge knife deeper and deeper into my heart.

Kala ko nga mahal mo ko, pero bat hindi mo naramdaman na sinasaktan mo ko. Ok lng sana kung isang inom ko lng ng alaxan ok na, pero hindi eh. The pain still remains and it gets more painful the more you feel unconscious of it.

This guy, one of my childhood friends, you know that I don't like the guy pero what did you do? You were fore warned of his ill attitude and you still kept on entertaining. Again, you pushed your double edge blade deeper in my heart. If everything were to be true then siguro nasa hospital na ako nag aagaw buhay at sinasabing "wag nyu siya saktan kasi alam ko balang araw ma realize nya din ung mali na gnagawa nya sken.". Sometimes I just cry it out inside, kasi hindi ko na talaga kaya pero I still keep on pushing. The more I am loving you the more I get hurt. What drives me away is you being innocent of what's happening.

I waited and waited for the time that you'll ask me "Boss? ok ka lang ba? Baka me nagagawa na akong mali hindi ko lang alam.". Pero wala eh, you were too self centered to ask things of my concern. Maybe you did ask me pero it wasn't for what I felt inside. I kept my hope inside, till I couldn't take the pain anymore. You know that I'm no superman. I get hurt, I get wounded, I cry and I get sad. You didn't want to change. I wanted you to, because I fear you'll be like that for a long time. I want you to learn to stand on your own and be strong not like what you're now.

Siguro mali ko din kasi I kept on forcing you to change which I know you couldn't do it in a haste. I admit I have my faults and my share of mistakes but I don't believe I gave you pain as much as you did to me. I can't spoon feed all your mistakes for you to learn everything, how can you be independent that way? It hurts me most not by the pain you're giving me, but by rejecting my thoughts for you. Nakita ko yung failure ko sayo. That I'm not good enough because I was not able to let you realize everything.  Sorry if it has to end this way. I am already in the verge of dying due to emotional pain. I guess a cotton couldn't really make a rock soft as it is. All I can do now is be with you till the day you become a cotton by your own.

Sana boss, hindi mo ko iwan kahit ganito tayo. I only stepped back kasi hindi ko na kaya ung sakit. Thought it doesn't mean I will leave you. I'll be here. Just like the old times. Who knows, maybe the day you'll become a softy will give me light to become special to you again. I never left you. I only gave you the lead and me at your back.  

We love to get hurt and sometimes we need to rest for us to be okay again.
I am a wounded soldier, wounded by all your shots and bullets.
I just need a rest and I'll get back to you again.

~ Ed-Louie